Friday the 13th

Happy Friday the 13th to you all.  It was almost two years ago on another Friday the 13th that we received to news that all our hopes of conceiving a child would not come true.  On that day after very invasive medical testing and hours of waiting for results the final word came in.  The doctor we had been seeing was very kind and was able to go over all the results and options available to us.  We are thankful for the time that he spent with us and his caring and thoughtful words.  As you can expect we were devastated. 
That day, that Friday the 13th changed our lives forever.  All that we had dreamed of and expected for our lives from the time that we had been children ourselves had to now be shifted. What would we do?  What could we do?  What would we choose?  These are questions that we spent weeks thinking about, praying about, and discussing.  Finally we found our answer.  We could still have the life we wanted filled with the blessing of children, they would just have to come to our family by other means.  We chose to pursue adoption.  The last two years have not been easy.  There have been times that we have been overwhelmed, frustrated, and doubted that we had made the correct choice.  There have been days that we have lost faith.  Each and every time those feelings came something happened to strengthen us, to buoy us up.  Many times it has been a kind word from a friend or a lead on a potential expectant mother.  Sometimes it has simply been the reassurance of the Holy Spirit comforting us to let us know that we are doing the right thing and that all will work out in the end.
Many times we have been asked if there is any progress on our hopes to adopt.  The answer is always that we are still waiting and hoping.  We have had a few of what I call 'Maybe Babies' over the last few months.  Children or expectant mothers that we have learned about and in one way or another. We have pursued getting in touch with and even had one expectant mother (that we know of) go through our itsaboutlove.org profile to see if she felt that we would be the right choice for her son.  In each of those cases the babies have found other forever homes to go to.  It is hard to not get our hopes up then we learn of these babies, especially when each time they have been crushed with the news that it has not been us who has been chosen.  We know that our Heavenly Father loves us.  We know that He has a plan for us, and We know that someday one of the "Maybe Babies" will be the one He has chosen to come to our home.  We will continue to wait and to hope.  We will continue to work on the nursery that we are preparing so that it will be ready when the time comes for our baby to come home. 
On this Friday the 13th we have hope.

Happy Friday